Two am this morning i woke up clinching and twitching and couldn't lay still, the way i use to when i was in my last stretch of college. I remember the nights of my senior project - i was able to fall asleep but minutes later i would get so restless i would start shaking. I had to sleep in a separate bed or on the couch because i would wake another person up. So as i sat on the couch this morning drinking water and trying to get all my shakes out i realized they were empathy shakes. Personally i had nothing to be anxious about and the day before had been a well-rounded Saturday. So my only conclusion was that i know what my life twin is going through and mentally i was well but my body embraced the empathy. Call me crazy and name it over-analyzing it but after years of sharing life events and 'being gotten'. . . you wouldn't call me crazy! So . . . even though i have nothing brillant to say and nothing i can physcially do to take the load off i can honestly say . . . Im always here for you - even at 2 am!
3.30.2008
Two am
Two am this morning i woke up clinching and twitching and couldn't lay still, the way i use to when i was in my last stretch of college. I remember the nights of my senior project - i was able to fall asleep but minutes later i would get so restless i would start shaking. I had to sleep in a separate bed or on the couch because i would wake another person up. So as i sat on the couch this morning drinking water and trying to get all my shakes out i realized they were empathy shakes. Personally i had nothing to be anxious about and the day before had been a well-rounded Saturday. So my only conclusion was that i know what my life twin is going through and mentally i was well but my body embraced the empathy. Call me crazy and name it over-analyzing it but after years of sharing life events and 'being gotten'. . . you wouldn't call me crazy! So . . . even though i have nothing brillant to say and nothing i can physcially do to take the load off i can honestly say . . . Im always here for you - even at 2 am!
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Okay I'm crying, and not in the usual funny Janae way, but seriously crying. I saw the Calla Lilies and just knew this was for me! I am so stressed right now, and that just may be the understatement of the year! I remember the days of your senior project and wanting so badly to connect and feel for you, but I just didn't get it quite yet! And now, here I am, and I feel sort of bad that you have to deal with my pain, but thank you! With all the craziness of school, working as much as possible, parental issues, boy issues, blah, blah, blah, all I can think of is getting in my car and taking full advantage of Daddy's little gas card for a much needed road trip to your casa! I miss you my friend, and thank you, you are the most amazing woman I have ever known! I heart you more than you know!
Way back when I was a neophyte blogger, you graced my blog with a nice little welcome and hello... I just wanted to return the blogging-Karma and say hello, hello.
Nerves I understand... I use to get panic attacks (not fun) and had social anxiety. The one thing I'd suggest is 6,000 mg Fish Oil (3,000 in the morning, 3,000 at night).
Omega-3 fatty acids are brain food and will literally stop all anxiety you have. Having soft skin is a bonus too, being in a select group of people known simply as 'fish-heads' is an honor as well.
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