Sharing my Happiness

WARNING: BLUNT BITCH ALERT

To all of you that have the ability to talk to your friends, family, or co-workers about your current relationship or how happy you are - Congradulations! You are one step ahead of me. For those of you that have the opprotunity to share a meal with your family AND your partner at the same time- I hope you know how lucky you are! For those of you that don't have to filter your happiness for others - i envy you. It's not your fault and i don't envy your happiness - i envy the fact that you can share it with others. Don't take advantage of your life or the people in it. So many people get caught up in the little disapointments or the small upsets and waste what could be a positive change in thinking. No one's life is perfect but you have the ability to share you love and your family - some of us can't. It makes me sick!

2010

Let me recap the last four weeks for you: After an extensive month long process I got my dream job and it is challenging me in ways i want to be challenged. I feel like I'm right were i am supposed to be. It didn't take much to get into the 8 to 5 routine but i do need to cut back in the coffee department. I continue falling in love with my woman and we spent our first Holiday's together. I still battle with the distance of my parents and their lack of being interested in anything that makes me happy. I know they love me but i will always strive, as i have done in the past, to never settle for side-arm hug relationships. My lupus is being nicely managed except for this weekend but I'm blaming that on the New Years Eve party! I was glad to see the conclusion of 2009. It was a perfect year of self-reflection, perspective double-check, and swimming in my darkest and shiniest moments, however, I'm ready to start a new year. I am climbing up the ladder again and I'm ready to see where this road is going. In 2010 i want to cook more outside the box and build up a circle of positive and fulfilling friends! Happy New Year!