I get SO agitated when i know someone that is royally screwing up their life. It almost bothers me that their disfunctional life bothers me so much. I don't want to be heartless and unemphatic but at the same time i contemplate their chaotic life so much so that i start getting stressed and frustrated that they won't learn. This is the part of my life where i still judge and have an opinion about everyone's elses situation. I have an acquaintance that is a train-wreck (there is no other word for her) and of all the soap's I've seen in my day i have never heard of a story like hers. She brings everything drama on herself and with no regret or responsibility to her actions. She has no logic to life, no foundation, is fueled with drama and the worst part is - she thinks she is happy. Yeah, i know! Who am i to say 'she THINKS she is happy'. Well effin', this is my blog and this is MY opinion. But geez, I'm so sick and tired watching her and a select other people in my life choose to be miserable and disfunctional and little-ol' me trying to live life with virtue, true friendships, honesty, peace, did i say virtue? I can't get away with crap. I lie and my world falls apart (not that i want to lie), i can't sleep well with drama in my life, with no foundation or responsibility i fall apart. How do these people do it? Honestly!
I wish i could just shut off my feelings about these people and just say ' oh well it's your life' but i can't! I whole-heartily want these people to be effin normal. YES, i want my crazy train-wreck friends to be more like me. It's okay i know I'm selfish. I don't think i will ever become heartless, or ever stop being so passionate about this so my theory is i just need to not even ask 'how is so-and-so doin', if i don't know then i can have nothing to be upset about and they can just live their painstaking roller-coaster never having true friends kind of life. I Dont' Care (even though i really do).
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