I feel as if my Life has got in the way of my Life. Yeah - i typed that right! I am in the vortex of enjoying a vacation in disguise and motivating myself into my future. It's true that we humans fear what we don't understand and freak out at the moment of change. We sometimes postpone life's happenings when in fact they have already happened. We put our hands over our eyes to make the boggie man of responsibility go away. Then we wake up one day as we sip coffee and realize life has already happened we just have to learn to roll with the punches on our feet not our backs.
I have tried to avoid being at my apartment for about a week not because i don't like it but because it's a mirror of my 'life's happenings'. Way too many unfinished projects, dirty laundry, an organized mess, a little dusty, papers to shift through, bills to pay - it's the definition of:
1. the state or quality of being earlier in time, occurrence, etc. 2. the right to precede others in order, rank, privilege, etc.; precedence. 3. the right to take precedence in obtaining certain supplies, services, facilities, etc., esp. during a shortage. 4. something given special attention.
Needless to say i fear ‘priority’ because i don't understand it - i don't know where to begin! I started with the minor things, paying the AT&T bill, mailing off papers to EDD, emailed people for references, and took a shower. Now what? Blog. . . of course!
When i was in school i could not do homework in a messy room so i would spend one day cleaning and organizing before i became serious about the work. I find myself in the same predicament. The evil cycle starts here because . . . well . . . i hate cleaning. How does someone love cleanness but hates to clean. Anyone wanta be my maid? I have no money to give you . . . i pay with wine!
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So I had this subtle idea that the first two paragraphs were speaking to my...situationally at least, then I read the 'I pay with wine' part and KNEW you were speaking directly to me!
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