My Time

I went to a job interview this morning and found myself in a situation where I could 1)Be completely naked in my answers or B)'Fake it til I made it'. Based on my Previous Blog I decided to go naked honest and if nothing else, I would be true to my soul.

Question 1:
Tell us what your biggest motivator is?

Inter-thought: Do they know I slept in this weekend til 10am and it took every ounce to get my wheels rolling in the morning?
Verbal Answer: To tell myself 'I'm proud of Me'. When you don't hear those words as much as you want or need there comes a time when the only person you can expect moral support from is yourself. It motivates me because I know no one else will do it and if I want it done right I gotta do it myself. Hearing 'Good Job', 'I'm proud of you', and 'You will do great' is so foreign for me. Especially by those who I think should be my cheerleaders. I have chosen to wake up and strive for 'I did everything in my power', 'I feel great about myself', and 'I have done ta-da greatness in spite of suck it others'. I'm My Motivator.

Question 2:
Tell us what is you biggest de-motivator?

Inter-thought: Seriously?! I pay my therapist for these answers.
Verbal Answer: That I have to tell myself 'I'm proud of me'. That I don't have as many cheerleaders that I want and sometimes need. That I have had to find ways to supplement hearing 'I'm proud of You' with telling myself 'I can do it'. What drives me is also my biggest weight.


How I feel Now:
They see greatness in me. It is now my time to show myself what they see...